after last night, i wasn't too proud of myself.. but neither do i see the need of bringing up whats already done. point to note was that, i should just pick myself up from where i left off, and head to another direction. one which requires, patience, time, faith, amongst everything else. change is not sth that can be done overnight, so i shall take it slow..

we all choose to learn things, the hard way. and i've learnt.

and i know of the life's lesson is: Don't take yourself too seriously, no one else does.
But i beg to differ, because, i value my time on earth, i value the people around me, the knowledge i have, the religion i was born in, and everything else. this is my life to live, and its about time i learn to live it properly.