am i dumb enough to keep turning down the outsourced position offered by Lilly NUS? am i dumb enough to turn it down, just because i feel i'm going to have a tough time there, because i'm already disliking the politics, and the shitness that comes along with it? am i that dumb to turn it down, when i really need a stable job, a full-time one, that pays well enough? i don't know, you tell me. is my decision dumb, unwise? my family kept asking me why i didn't want to take it on, and i explain to them over and over. though they empathised with me, and said they'd give their support, i know somehow, they just wished i settled for it.. i hope this decision is one that i wont look back and regret. i've been with lilly NUS long enough, know what i like about it and what i don't. I just hope that He blesses me such that i'll be able to get a well-paying job that i've put in the effort to find and one that i have interest in. Insya Allah.