so here's an update:

recent events wasn't so good, having lost my beloved grandma on cny itself, which explains why i was not updating at all.. al- fatihah untuk nenek ku, Habibah binti Abdul Kadir, yg pulang ke rahmahtullah pada 14 Februari 2010.. Semoga amalan nya diterima Allah dan di tempatkan di kalangan org2 yg soleh. Amin.

one really shouldnt complain too much about life, living itself is a blessing.. and i can say im doing pretty well these days.. though i have to deal with grievances that comes to all someday, i was still able to put up a smile.. and apart from finding myself in a much more firm, steadfast place in whatever i choose to do, i feel at ease with myself, and the things i've accomplished.. i've been more expressive in letting my closed ones know how much they mean to me.. as well as always trying to seek His path..

and have i found someone whose for real this time? someone who wont break my heart like the previous times? will the feeling be the same? the feeling of having butterflies in my stomach, the pure happiness that overcomes when he does small little things as a hint? i'm happy he cares. and im hoping for the best. but only time can tell. we'll see. for now, no relationships for me. just pure gg out with no strings attached.

shall head to bed now, take care peeps(: