"Dear FutureMe,
how are you doing now? is your life much better than it was a year ago? I really hope it is. You've been thru quite alot my dear. And i hope you're still hanging on, if things arent any better. U're such a strong woman, and u're the pillar of strength in which others seek, for that, all the more, u gotta pull yourself together even if things arent going the way u want it to be. My dear, u're a great wonderful, woman, after turning 20, im sure u're more awesome than ever. How are the people in your life doing? I hope your family is better off now, and that ur mum, dad, and evrybody else is doing great. How are things with your poly friends then? Are you still in contact with them? Hows the guy that you once liked, or still do? Is he still contact with you? is he getting on fine, doing better? I hope he's good too, although i really wished by now u're already with him, even though that might not happen too, u still have your other friends. Be strong my dear.There's nth u cant handle. Cos, u're this unique, strong lady, with a strong will. Whatever it is, im proud of where you are now. I love you."
amazing. just a year has passed. have things changed?for some, definitely, took a turn for the better. for some, its pretty stagnant. perhaps i'll write again for the future me in 2011. it was nice to receive an encouraging email from myself, when i needed it the most.
.. shall try to sleep. nights
*when i get myself in such dead-ends situation, i just wanna cease contact with the rest of the world.